How’d Calleah and I meet? That’s an interesting question. I played this online game called World of Warcraft. A friend of mine in the game kind of introduced us. For awhile we were just friends, talking in the game or on messengers when we were around the computer. Then one night i came home from the bar way too drunk to type and ended up giving her my phone number. She got her laughs out of me that night. I was wasted, and I have no clue what all I told her. I know she got to hear me hugging the trash can cause I couldnt make it to the toilet though. Probably should’ve left that out of here, but hey it was kinda funny. Gotta have some humor.
Anyways, we ended up becoming pretty close. The more I got to know her the more I realized I was falling for her. Feelings started to develop for someone I had never actually met in person. I remember telling my mom I thought I was falling in love with a girl I had never met. I had to meet her. Problem was that she was living in California and I was in Louisiana. I’d just gotten a decent size check from the navy upon discharge, so I offered to fly her to Natchitoches for the Christmas Festival in 2006. She accepted.
The saying love at first sight doesnt really do this justice. I mean I knew I had feelings for her before she got off the plane, but the way i felt when I looked into her eyes that first time, I cant describe it. I knew then and there what I wanted. The next week and a half flew by for us, but it was amazing. Just being around her I felt like a different person. And when that time was over, letting her get back on that plane and leave was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. When I got back to the truck I must’ve sat there a good 30-45 minutes before I was in any condition to drive.
We continued to talk on the phone and computer as we had been. Things were ok for a few weeks, then I think the distance started getting to us. By the beginning of February it had gotten really rough on us. I had moved to Brownsville, Texas with my father. She ended up making a surprise visit down there in an attempt to patch up our relationship. Things went pretty well, but a few weeks after she left things got rough again. It’s like when we are together things are amazing, and when we’re apart we’re ‘ok’, for a few weeks. Then the stress of not having each other started getting to us.
In May she ended up transferring to Austin, Texas. I was working offshore and ended up having 2 weeks off when she was planning to move. So I drove to California, helped her pack up her stuff and move halfway across the country. Hoping this would be our chance to make something. We’d be closer than we had ever been. This visit together was probably the worst we went through though. It was like we both knew we were going to have to let go again, so that made it hard for either of us to allow the other inside. After this trip I saw her one other time. When I brought her birthday present to her. Things didnt go so well then either. For me it seemed like a good time to try and walk away. All we were doing was hurting each other, and it didnt seem like she wanted me in her life anymore. U know what it’s like to hold everything you could ever ask for, then repeatedly have to let it go?
About a year passed, with very little contact. I’d check her myspace page or something to see how she was doing, usually not even saying anything to her when I did. There was a couple times I’d email her and we’d talk then kinda go our own way. My life went through it’s usual roller-coaster of ups and downs, most of the downs i brought on myself. I got to where there wasnt much at all I cared about. Seemed everytime I let myself care about something it was taken away. First my son, then Calleah. I’ve done a lot of things over the past year or so I’m not proud of at all. I hurt myself, others close to me, and didnt really care most of the time.
Me and Calleah started actually talking again as friends just before I went to Arizona to work. Way things worked out she had a weeks vacation coming up right about the time that job in Arizona was supposed to be finished. So I asked her to come to Natchitoches and hang out with me. She came of course, and we had a blast. The day before she had to come back to Austin, she gave me an option. I could either stay there or come back to Austin with her. Of course I came back with her. At the time it was only planned to be a temporary visit, but I think both of us hoped it wouldnt be. I know I hoped it wouldnt end so soon.
This was almost a month ago, and I’ve already asked her to marry me. It’s not really like we’re jumping into anything, she still has a good while before we plan on getting married to run me off. I’m kidding lol. Right now I couldnt be happier. There’s nowhere else in the world I’d rather be. At the moment I dont know what the future holds for us. There’s no telling where we could be in a year, 5 years, or even 10 years. The only thing that matters to me right now is that she’s with me.
I’ve done a lot of things in my life. Been a lot of places, seen a lot of things. Of which most people only dream about. I may be young, and I hope I still have a lot of living left to do. If there’s one thing I’ve learned though, it’s this. Lifes not about where you’ve been, what you’ve done, or what you’ve seen. It’s about who you have to share all of these things with. I have found the one I want to share all of this with. I love the person I am when I’m around her, and just seeing her smile brightens my day.
I love you Calleah. <3